“I didn’t know I was riding a roller coaster that did not stop. When they told me life was full of ups and downs, I thought sooner or later I’d reach the top. But here I am falling through air, stomach in throat, and hands mingled with hair. I’ve never liked roller coasters very much, maybe because I’ve never had a hand to clutch. I’m choking on clouds and spitting up rain water, I’m starting to think delicate souls are born into this world for slaughter. But I’m trying to listen to the birds that fly by, they tell me “hold tight” whispering advice on how to survive. My only hope is that the sun will shine brighter each time I crest the top, and I’ll become mightier each time I brave the drop.”
“I just want to drink coffee from the safety of the porch; watching the rain fall in bounds across the soft green grass. I want you beside me, and we don’t have to say a word. I want to spend the morning just staring into the earth drinking itself under a clouded sky, and finally know my place in it all.”
I don’t know if its true what I feel right now. You always there, texting me all day. It is you who only looking for me, day and night. I can’t deny this feeling, it’s growing day by day.
But I’m not reading yet to the next level. I’m afraid if we failed. I know I’m overthinking but this is it. I’m not good keeping conversation. I’m lack in communication. But I try my best to give everything that I could.
No one is perfect and I’m not looking for perfectionist in you. It’s you the only one who can change your behaviour. I can be your reminder. But if I do and you do nothing— let’s think about it again. I’m not giving up in you. Not this time. If you hate it, I’ll do more.
And I pray, may Allah show you the right path. May Allah forgive and protect your heart. May Allah ease in everything you do. May Allah bless you always.
